Think Of Me Fondly

No internet in the house. AGAIN. Dulan!

*Bi, next time let me go pay the bloody bill k? Ishk!*

How to do work without internet? Can't do my research at all. Have to bring my damn heavy laptop to college every week to use the wireless there.

Anyways, updates and blogging from ze college student lounge surounded by annoying people blasting their music and arguing over who's design is better.
*Feel guilty now, Bi? Haha! JK lah!*

Been so effing busy these past few weeks. Semester is ending so it's normal for any TOA students to lose sleep and fall sick like a dog. We have those pair of red havent-been-sleeping-much-but still-must-do-work-and-go-class eyes and that knn-dulan-why-the-lecturer-so-merciless look all the time.

I fell sick again and you know what's the funny part?
I fell sick after quitting smoking and alcohol and I've been drinking lots and lots of water.
This is what I get? WHY LAH?

My daily routine recently is like this:
Sleep at 10pm - 2am
Do assignments till morning
Go class
Come back sleep like 2 or 3 hours.
Do assignments till 10pm.

Sad case, right? I have to split my sleeping time into 2.
Celaka, who took this picture when I KO on the sofa?!



Taking a break to take a picture at 7am.



Now that I've dropped figures it's a bit more relaxing lah at least. I guess it was good that I dropped it. Told my dad about it and he didn't really sound me. Just lecturered a bit.
I kinda miss that. It shows that he still hasn't given up on me, right? I hope not. I really need advice from him on working life in the future.

Oh and did I ever tell you there're a lot of weirdos in my college?
A lot.



November - raining season.
Before one very heavy rain pour.



Got so cold or not? -_-"

The Good Kind

Waiting for Kimm to fetch me out so just blogging some random shit that crosses my mind.

I realise something, girls who are hot, or at least they think they're hot, smiles without showing teeth in pictures. As in every picture. I wonder why.

I wanna learn how to speak Canto! As if booming people in English and Hokkien not bad enough haha! But hey, dialects like Canto and Hokkien makes people feel more comfortable for some reason.

* Gah, I'm stuck. Where the hell is that bitch?! *

I feel like I'm becoming more and more domestic. I'm doing house chores more and more and I can't stand it when the floor is even a bit dirty. Not to make you feel disgusted but last time I can live with it for at least a month. Why eh? I guess its a good thing?

I love the new hit by Britney Spears. So what if her whole life's in a mess now? Her songs remains as awesome as always.

* Hoi Kimm, pick up the damn phone! *

I drink so much water lately I need to go toilet almost every half an hour. Aikz! It's good to drink a lot of water I know but ishk damn ma fan lah!

I just kicked someone out from the house yesterday night. Oh damn, you so evil!

I want How I Met Your Mother Season 5!! Arghhh!

Human desires are very screwed up sometimes. Girls can be so mean. This is why I don't like hanging out with girls despite being in the same school with them for 5years. How the hell did I survive in girls school?

* Ah, whatever, I can't think of anything right now *

Don't Look Back And Live

I've decided, after weeks of consideration, to drop figures and retake it next semester. Which means I gotta pay extra RM700! But since I'm not going anywhere with my situation now I might as well just drop it for now and dedicate one whole blardy semester to improving my figures.

Figures, figures. You give me headache every semester without fail!

Half man, half woman =D



* Am I making a huge mistake?! *

Anyways I just slept for 18 hours straight after not being able to sleep properly for 2 days. 4 hours in 2 days, not enough obviously! Felt so much better after my hibernation but damn, I feel hungry every 2 hours.

This 18 hours of sleep is gonna make up for my sleeping time for the week ahead of me. At first. Figures due on Monday and I'm thinking I won't be getting anymore sleep for the rest of the weekend but I called Mum and told her I'm dropping this subject so I left CGPP due this Friday. Awesome. But even then I have a lot to do! And Dad is in Japan now so I can't tell him about this. Hope he doesn't diu me =(

I just had a very bad and very weird dream.

And here are some random pictures I feel like posting up.

Syzean's birthday was last week so we went to Ole Ole Bali for makan makan session.
The birthday girl and her man. Sweet!



Nice place with great ambience.
Food was awesome! Though portion is a lil too big.



This is a carpark in some shopping mall in Sydney.
$24 an hour?! Ridiculous!!!
Next time you wanna complain Pavilion or KLCC is overcharging their customers for parking their cars, think about this!



Found this in a hostel in Sydney as well. Pardon the flash.



Awww, ain't she sweet? Don't judge a book by its cover!



Should I cut my fringe lai dis?!



This is a pair of sterling silver bulldogs from Dunhill.
Retail price is about RM3k!
Guess what it's used for?



PLAY!
No seriously, my colleague told me all you can do with it is friggin' play with it. Like tossing it around or just fondling it or whatever.
WATAFAK?! Which idiot will actually buy this??!
Stupid rich morons.

Ok lor, I play with it.

There's a reason why I can't fall for rich guys.
No matter how good or sweet you are to me.
I'm sorry, I just can't.

You Can't Appreciate The Good Without Experiencing The Bad

We had this lecture last week and I find it really interesting.
It's about left brain and right brain. How some people are more left-brained than the others and vice versa.

This explains why some people can't get along with some people and some people can't work with certain colleagues and also why some couples couldn't work things out in a relationship.

My lecturer gave an example how 4 right-brainers and grouped together with 1 left-brainer guy and in the end, the guy couldn't stand the way the others work and requested to change groups.

I think I'm more towards the right-brain. No one is 100% left brain or 100% right brain.



People who are born to be a genius is simply because they can switch from left brain to the right faster than us average people.
Even the way we learn things is affected by this concept. How some people study for months and still can't do well in exams but those who studied overnight can score.



Just gotta know what helps you absorb information more effectively.



College is crazy as usual. Finals are pouring in and I remain the only person in the house losing sleep over assignments. Blah! Perservere persevere!

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Just thought of quoting some lines from movies because I feel that it relates to me somehow.

Miranda: I am so fucked up, I am SO fucked up! I can't say I love you, I just can't. It's not in my DNA! Everywhere I look it's just flying out of people's mouth. It was the perfect time to say it and I couldn't. He was just hanging there waiting and I just couldn't! I'm never gonna be happy, it's just not gonna happen for me.

Carrie: Do you love him?

Miranda: How can I love him if I can't even say the words? I always thought that when the right guy came along, all of my bullshit would calm down and go away and the words would just fall out of my mouth because i would know that he was the one. And here he is, the perfect guy. And I.. Is he the one? I don't know I don't know! Cause I am so fucked up and I'm gonna ruin my life.

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Robin: I just got dumped but it's ok. I wasn't that into him. Story of my life. Everyone else is all falling in love and acting stupid and goofy and sweet and insane but not me. Why don't I want that more? I want to want that. Am I wired wrong or something?

Ted: No, you're wired just fine.

Robin: What if I'm just a cold person? Tonight Mike was willing to look like a complete idiot for me, but I couldn't be Gretel. Why can't I be Gretel?

Ted: Cause you just haven't met the right Hansel yet. One day you're gonna meet a guy who's gonna make you wanna look like a complete idiot. He's out there somewhere.

Camwhoring Is Fun Sometimes xD

Yes, yes, a lot of people say I don't look good in permed hair but I still wanna upload these pictures anyways.

After that photoshoot, Bi and I randomly decided to go club just for the sake of showing off my konnonye celebrity look and take loads of pictures. Haha! Oh and our friend Shen joined our crazy if not soh hai outing.

Took like 150 pictures in just an hour. Nuts! After that just danced a lil and go home at 2am. Damn early right? But a fight was about to occur, as usual, so we cabut after we're done.

Nouuu! I can't act cute with this hair, it's just too weird >.<



Bi say I look like the celebrity and she looks like one of my fans. xD



Take picture with you already, what you want some more lah?



Stupid thing we always do, put our hand through our earring.



And using our hair as ketiaks haha!



Yeah, I added the butterfly in photoshop to make it look nicer? Hmm.







Tired of standing, tumpang people's chair to take pictures hehe.





Oooh, got a kiss by a celebrity haha!



Yerr, why you don't layan me?!



Heh, now I don't wanna layan you.



And, we're good =D



*kiss kiss!



I want a kiss too!



Nah, fuck you. Hah!



I like your boobs, bitch!





Heh, Imma poser!



Eh, I also know!



Ooh, she's cute!





The soh hais.



Lala poses.
5



4



3



2



1



And we're done! =D

Eh eh wait! One more..
At home hehe!

Love and Trust

Friendships.

A lot of things happened lately and it got me thinking. Just what exactly is friendship? To be able to share and open up everything? Or just people you hang out and have fun with? I wonder just how much you can open up to someone without them judging you? I know friends should love each other no matter how screwed up he/she gets but what the other person is thinking, we may never know. Should you tell your friends what they wanna hear, or what they should hear? For me, I always choose the latter because to me, I care enough about my friends to wake them up if they do anything wrong. And I want them to do the same. This is how we learn and grow, no? It's always good to know that there's people watching out for you and picking you up when you fall. We are only humans. Learning from our mistakes is all part of life. If you have anything to say about me, tell me straight to my face. Even if the truth is hard to swallow, it's still better than white lies. I don't believe in white lies. Lying is an absolute no-no for me. And if you start lying to even your closest friends then something is definitely wrong.

Trust.

It's something hard to gain and sometimes even the person you trust most in the world can let you down, intentionally or not. Just how honest can you be with another person? I'm a very straight forward person and I don't usually lie about what I do or where I go. I trust my friends enough to think that they will not go behind my back. Like I said, I hate lies. Even if it's just a small thing, even if you're lying to protect my feelings, I cannot accept it. If you don't trust me, then how can you call me a friend? And if I do anything that is making you feel one kind then tell me instead of bitching about me to someone else. Love and trust; one cannot survive without the other. I'm proud to say that I've never betrayed any of my friends' trust. Unless of course you did it to me first. But I'm happy to say that I still have one person I can trust whole heartedly. And that's you big bro. I hope I still can call you that =)

The tongue is the greatest weapon in the world.
Whether to build or to destroy, use it wisely.

Go Green! - To Perm Or Not Perm?

This is a video Dylan and Alston and his gang made.
Green Malaysia! Quite interesting. Check it out!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hiB-lsYSRoU&feature=related

Creativity can come from so many places =)

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Ok, fine! I know I look like crap in those modelling pictures. Apparently permed hair will make my face look fatter. So many people complaining my face looks bengkak. Fine, fine, I won't perm my hair. Or maybe just not like those crazy big curls. More subtle?

But my bi and some people say it looks damn nice? The next day she actually wanted me to go salon and perm my hair already.

Some say it looks hot some say it's not. I wanna change my look a bit lah, been having straight hair all my life. Aikz, deicisions decisions.

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This is a lil too late but yeah it still applies.

* We've never really got it right, have we? =) *

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have work out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
there's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Ahhh already gone, already
gone, already gone
Ahhh already gone, already
gone, already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
there's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Bread Factory & SPCA

Since my laptop crash I have to reinstall all my programs.
*shit happens for a reason but what's the reason for my laptop to crash?!!*
Blogging while waiting for my Adobe CS4 to finish installing. Such.Big.Files.

Anyways, I've been having trips for my college projects the past week.

Trip #1: Bread factory.
It's for our advertising principle and marketting class. We're suppose to find an actual client and design an ad campaign for them and find ways to improve their advertising situation.

Yeah the client is Roti Sedap. I've never heard of them.
We chose this because my group mate, Yen's family owns them. So it's easier for us to get permission and all that.

So here we are.





They made us wear these funny looking caps before entering the factory. Very reluctant to take this picture =P



And then they force me to take a picture also cause they tak puas.
Haha, kebodohan!



Hmm, I don't know whether I'm allowed to post out pictures of her factory inside or not so I'm not gonna. What if her competitor try to do something to sabotage them or whatever?

So yeah, no pictures. We looked around the facotry to see how things work and then interview Yen's older brother who answered our questions and everything.
The place was filled with bread smell. Very nice actually, but it was kinda stuffy towards the end and I ended up falling asleep for awhile. Sorry! =D

Trip #2: SPCA!

This is for moral project. I wanted to visit SPCA for a long time anyways so we chose to go here instead of the usual old folks home and orphanage.



Cats for adoption!



This fella tried to climb out so I put my hand there so that it won't fall off. Looks so fragile, poor lil thing.



Dogs!



They're more dogs than cats in the adoption center.











Albino dog.



Puppies! =)



So cute! Reminds me of those puppies I brought back few weeks ago =(



Start working. Clean bowls, feed the dogs, clean their cages, blablabla.





Cut nails xD



Please "potong" your dog before you take it home.



That's it! If I'm seriously thinking of getting a pet, maybe I'll start with cats first as they're less demanding than dogs. As in, attention, grooming, etc. Hmm, we'll see.

Laptop Crash?! *editted*

I do not think of you let alone blog about you.
Please stop flattering yourself.
What are you even doing, coming to my blog anyways?
Don't you have better things to do, like flying around the world?
Thank goodness you don't have my fb, if not you gonna stalk me there as well? Pfftt!

Playing victim? Omg, what are you? 14?
He's not in my mind anymore so rest assured, your bf is very-the-safe!

People change, indeed.

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My laptop crashed yesterday thanks to someone.
No worries, Alex, I won't mention your name here.
Thank God Jeremy came over to fix it. Though I need to reinstall all my programs, everything, including my assignments are still there and I'm soooo effing relieved! Typography is due Thursday!
Computer crashing, that's like the worst nightmare for any TOA students!
Now it's working fine =D
Thanks a lot! I'm glad you're still in my life, one way or another.
And yes, I owe you big time lah. As usual. Haha.

Nights, world.

Just How Dangerous Is An Open Heart?

Promoting Anna Sui =D

Here are some quotes here and there that I found meaningful.

If it's hard, let go and breathe.
It's hard to do but it's even harder to hold on.
-C

Don't let someone become your everything, because when they're gone you have nothing.
-N

I don't need to be wanted. I want to be needed.
-N

You'll bring back my heart, but everyone knows that once something is broken and carelessly fixed for the wrong reasons, it's even more fragile and it's never the same.
-N

Before love, my heart was a black hole. After love, I didn’t have a heart. I'm not sure which is better.
-N

The way to love anything, is to realise it may be lost.
-L

It's no good trying to keep up old friendships. It's painful for both sides. The fact is, one grows out of people, and the only thing is to face it.
-A

Life is like a piano. White keys are happy moments. & black keys are sad moments. But, both keys are played together to obtain great music.
-A

Always put yourself in other's shoes, if you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person too.
-A

Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
-A

You don't realize how much you care about someone until they don't care about you.
-A

Are we to paint what's on the face, what's inside the face, or what's behind it?
-P

There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle, the other is as though everything is a miracle.
-T

Things are not what they are, it's what you feel.
-E

Better to keep quiet and be thought an idiot than opening your mouth and prove it.
-R

This living was never a project of mine.
-R

Hope you guys enjoyed it =)

Ps: J say my face look fat in the modelling pictures! *sobs! DIET!